love and madness; fear and loss; pain

you are always there, from the moment i awake. and you stay with me, all day, every day; you never leave my side, not for a moment.  it seems as though you have always been with me, though i am able to recall days when you were not.  but now you are with me all my waking hours.  only when i sleep, am i without you.  go away, pain.